Life

Ye kahani meri h mera name aryan saifi hai.vse to main middle class famliy se hu par life ko puri trah se enjoy kiya hai maine 15 sal ki umar me first gf 16 sal ki me dusri uske bad sachcha pyr hua shikha name ki ldki se lekin bachpan se hi dil fek insan tha m koi problem me ho to mujhse dkha nahi jata tha bas help krni hoti thi shikha gf thi lekin apne looks pr bahut ghamand tha khud pr yakin tha jisko chahe gf bana skta hu. Relation k shuruaat m 1 sal m bahut loyal tha lekin usko frk hi nahi pdta tha mere pyr se usko lagta tha vo mujhse bahut pyr krti h lekin mujhe lagta tha vo nahi krti fir kya jsa k sab jante h dost kamine hote h unhone mjhe btaya k tu iske piche apni life khrb kr raha h fir kya tha bs maine aur gf bnani shuru ki pehle ek fir 2 fir tisri fir 4th ek waqt m meri  bahut sari gf thi lekin m pyr shikha se hi krta tha sab shikha k bare m janti thi lekin sikha kisi k bare m nahi janti thi fir ek din shikha ko pta chala aur usne alag hone ka faisla liya main tut chuka tha main usko rokna chahta tha lekin shayad m kamjor tha maine bahut kosis ki usko rokne ki lekin vo jana chahti thi maine usse bahut mafi mangi finnaly vo ruk gyi lekin fir vo bat na thi rishte m mjhe pta tha. mjhse gltiya hui h lekin same yehi gltiya usse bhi hui thi lekin m kuch nahi keh paya qki m janta tha m uske bina jee nahi paunga ek bar fir hum sth the lekin kehte h na buri aadte aur bura waqt picha kaha chodta h maine sab se muh mod liya aur shikha ne mjhse pta nahi us waqt kya chal raha tha kuch smjh hi nahi aa raha tha vo life m break chahti thi aur m jse uske chale jane se meri sanse ruk jayegi maine usko rok to liya tha lekin vo mere sth hote hue bhi sth na thi waqt bit raha tha ldte jhgdte hmne hmari jindgi k 5 sal gujar diye the main usse pyr to krta tha lekin uske sth khush nahi tha.fir ek din vo aaya meri ek gf jise m piche chod chuka tha uski shadi hui thi lekin shadi k ek month k bad hi uska husband expire ho gya tha mjhe jab ye pta chala to m tut gya tha bs sochne laga kse uski help kru aur hum bat krne lage is bare m shikha ko pta nahi tha ek din maine shikha ko btaya meri ek frnd k sth esa hua h main chahta hu usse shadi kr lu qki main janta tha usko koi acha ladka ab nahi milega jitne rishte aa rahe the koi divorcy tha koi  aged tha ese main mjhe bas itna pta tha is sab m uski koi glti nahi h usko saza q mile to maine shikha se kaha usne mana kr diya main tut sa gya tha smjh nahi aaya kiska sth du.Maine khud ko sabse dur kr liya lgne laga ye dunia rehne layak nahi h. kuch waqt k bad shikha aur m fir sth aaye lekin is bar bat alag thi sab thik tha ek din uski frnd jo sth pdhti thi usne mjhse kaha ke shikha aur uski ldai hui h aur main unke beech sab thik kr skta hu aur usne mjhse promise kraya ke m usko na btau hm bat krte h isi beech shikha ki room mate ka mjhse bat krna hua msg m unkwn ban kr fir shikha ko pta chala k uski frnd se bat krta hu hmari ldai hui aur m usko smjha na paya m roya gidgidaya pr vo na mani sab sahi ho pata usse pehle hi shikha ki room mate ne kaha m usse bhi bat krta hu aur m bebas ho gya m kuch na keh paya. "aankho m uske sawal jo main pdh na paya dil m mere jawab jo main de na paya" Maine sar jhukaya aur bas itna keh paya dusro k gharo ko bchane chala tha galib apne aashiyane ko jala baitha. 7 sal ho chuke the aaj bhi yad h mjhe ek ek lamha jo hmne sth gujara. "Tut kr bikhar chuka hu us aaine ki trah se main jo jiske bhi hth aaayega sirf jakhm dega"